Dear Bently,

Can you believe it's almost 2012??? Where did the time go?? Your first Christmas is already come and gone and I am just trying to stop time in it's tracks. Working has made time go by so much faster. I can hardly stand it! :( I hate and love watching you get bigger. You seem more like a toddler to me than a baby. I love you so much little man!
Anywho. Today is New Years Eve. The first you have ever experienced and I am grateful I get to experience it with you! This year has been a big year, for you and me! You have changed so much this year. This year you were born, learned to hold you head up, learned to smile, recognize Mom and Dad, sit by yourself, eat solid foods, crawl, and now you are pulling yourself up to standing all by yourself! Holy smokes! Slow down! I didn't accomplish a single new years resolution and look at you! Wow!
Well I want to write more about your first Christmas but you just crawled out of the room so I guess I better go make sure you aren't getting into any trouble! I love you so much son!
Mom

Dear Bently,

It is 2:08 in the morning on Christmas Eve. It is your first Christmas and I am so excited! :) I just want everything to be perfect tomorrow. I know that's stupid because no matter what you aren't going to remember it but I will. I want to be able to tell you stories about your first Christmas and I just want you to have the memories I didn't get. Traditions were never really kept in my family and I don't want that for you. I want every holiday to be important and special. I hope I can accomplish that! So keep your fingers crossed. I can't even describe to you how excited I am to spend your first Christmas with you! I love you so so much Mr. Bently!
Love,
Mom

Dear Bently,

Finally I am on my 4 day weekend for Christmas. I seriously can't believe it's here! I remember not too long ago being pregnant and talking about how next year we'll have you to celebrate with! Here you are, 8 monhts old in all your glory. You are the cutest thing in the whole world. I hope you love your presents. I hope this Christmas is perfect and it brings nothing but fond memories for both of us. I love and cherish every single memory I get from you. You are my whole entire world. I am very excited for Christmas together! I love you always!
Mom

Dear Bently,

Not too long ago I had a very special moment with you. There I was holding you in the family room and my ipod starting playing, "Baby It's Cold Outside". This is pretty much my favorite song so immediately I started dancing with you. As I twirled and spun, and sang in you ear I thought about how in 21 plus years we could be doing this at your wedding. Then you'll be holding me and I'll be the one in tears. Maybe you'll sing in my ear and whisper you love me just as I do with you now. And at that time, when I want to look into your big baby blue eyes, I will be looking up instead of down. I am in no rush to reach that moment, and until then, I can't wait for many more dances with you my cute son!
I love you with all my heart!
Mom

Dear Bently,

Last night we went and saw the lights at temple square! I was SO excited! Everything this holiday season is more exciting due to the fact that it's your first time to do just about EVERYTHING! It was pretty fun despite the fact that it was freezing! And while we walked from our parking spot to the temple a choir concert had just gotten out and they were all headed to our cars. It was like trying to run through sand. Your Dad took the stroller off roading to get past them! (Aka onto the grass!) Haha! :) The lights were breathtakingly beautiful. I told your Dad, "I love that there are still beautiful places in the world, despite all the ugly." I hope you find those beautiful places through your whole life Bently. The world is just getting more and more corrupt but as long as you look hard enough, there are beautiful places! :)

Today me and you spent 3 hours shopping. We shopped straight through your nap time! You were so good Bently. And everywhere we went we were stopped by people who couldn't stop telling me how adorable you are. I always said Thank you like I was shocked they would come out of there way to tell me that but secretly on the inside I was thinking, "I know he's the cutest thing to every exsist!" I loved spending all that time just me and you. Well I seriously hate getting you out of the carseat at every location, but besides that, it was awesome! :) I love pushing the shopping cart as far away from me as I can while I hold onto it, then pull it forward towards me super fast and blow on your face. Every, single, time it makes you giggle. And there is nothing more magical in the whole world then your giggle!

Then tonight, you fell asleep in my arms. As you get older you do this less and less. I think you only did it tonight because you were so tired from not having any naps this morning! But I loved it! I held you close and kissed your baby lips, and whispered I loved you over and over again. I love holding my sleeping baby! I held you till my muscles were sore and my arms stiff! I wish you would never grow up! Please try and stop!
I love you with all my heart!
Mommy

Dear Bently

As I sit this you are sitting on my lap. I can't believe how big you are! And how much you wish you could play with the keyboard. I know someday I will look back on this and long for the days where you sit on my lap. I seriously love it. I worked 10 hours today and I hated being away from you. It's the worst! But I got to come home from my lunch and I was trying to nap but all you wanted to do was "talk" and play! :) I couldn't resist your big smiles and you cute jabber! It made going to work all that much harder. As I buckled you all snug into your carseat I gave you about a million kisses!! You are so good to put up with my kisses. You just have the perfect kissing cheeks and I can't resist! Now I am home and you just woke up from your nap! So here we are. Two peas in a pod. You are my little best friend and I hope you think the same way about me. I love you Bently! More than you know. I hope one day you'll be able to read these letters and realize how much I love you. I am planning to give them to you on your 18th birthday. I can't even imagine you that old now. But I know the time goes by too fast. You are my whole world little bew! I hope no matter how old you get you always realize how much I love you!!!
Love you with all my heart,
Mommy

Dear Bently

Today you have a cold. Well not just today, for like 3 days now. It's funny, when you get hurt or when you're sick, even if it's not serious and your over it two secons later, it still kills me on the inside. I mean I know your fine and it will pass but it just pains me so much to see you hurting. I hate it! So if you can, please, please, get better fast. I love you more than anything!
Mom

Dear Bently

Tonight was one of those nights that I want to remember for ever! We set up for Christmas tonight and can I tell you how excited I am!!! I love Christmas, well, really I'm a holiday person but you know that. Anywho, I love Christmas a lot and as we were putting up the tree together I just couldn't help but think, it doesn't get any better than this. I mean literally. I have a warm place to live, a job that provides, and my two most favorite people with me to help me celebrate Christmas. I just looked over at your Dad and gave him a big kiss. I love our little family. :) Then I got to give you a bath which of course you LOVED!! :) You always love your baths. Today you unplugged the bath tub. I really hope that doesnt' become a habit little man! Then you fell asleep in my arms. Seriously Bently, there is nothing more magical that watching you sleep. You are so peacful and cute. I always want to remember this. I try so hard to keep snapshots in my brain. I never want to forget you at this age!!! Thanks for making my night Bently. Seriously, you made it so awesome. I hope you realize how much I want to be a good Mom for you. I know I'm not always perfect but I sure try hard. I love you with all my heart, more than you know!
Love,
Mom