Dear Bently,

I feel like I can never get enough time with you! Even if I spend all day with you, it never feels like enough. Partly because I'm always running around like crazy trying to get everything done. So even on my days off, I feel like we don't often get a ton of quality time! I hate it but I know it won't be like this forever! And I just try and take advantage of the time we do get as much as possible!

Today we I was taking Valerie's bridals so we were driving around in the canyons! You kept telling me we were going to go see the leaves! :) Since Valerie was in her dress I climbed in the back with you and Liv. I had a blast sitting back there with you guys! You talked to me the whole way and sang and danced! My favorite part was on the way home you reached over and grabbed my arm and just wrapped both your arms around it. For a moment, you were asleep just holding my arm! I just stared down at you in complete awe! I am so grateful to be your mother! I made a collage the other day of you through the years and it hit me, you really are becoming a little kid. Pretty soon you won't fit on my lap so well, you might not tell me you love me a hundred times a day and insist on giving me hugs and kisses every 5 minutes. You'll grow up and change and that's a good thing, but it made me realize I need to appreciate this phase you are in now! So I just watched you sleep as you clung to my arm! I was going to take a picture but the radio started to act funny and it woke you up! :(

While we were up in the mountains I turned around and found You, Dad, and Livvy all dancing to music coming from Dad's phone. It may have been the cutest thing I have ever seen in my life! I took some video of it because I loved it so much! I hope you never get too shy to just dance you little heart out, no matter where you are! :)

I love you Bently Elmer! There is just something special between a son and a Mom. I am so grateful I get to have that relationship with you!

Love,
Mom

Dear Bently,

You say funny things all the time! I'm horrible at writing them down, but your Dad helped remind me of a couple things you've said! Here we go.

- Today you sent a snapchat to Aunt Janaye. Dad did not prompt you. You said, "Aunt Janaye and Mom are perfect. Aunt Courtney is adorable!"

- At preschool the fire fighters were supposed to come and do a presentation. Now you are scared of firefighters for some reason so your Dad and I showed up when they were supposed to come, to support you. Well they got called out so they couldn't come. Grandma KayLynn asked the preschool kids, "Should we have them come next week, or just not worry about it?" No one spoke but you. You said, "You should just not worry about it!" It was hilarious.

- Last night at Uncle Cole and Aunt Jen's, I asked you if you liked your dessert. Completely honest, you said, "That party was yummy (pointing to the icing). That part was gross!" (Pointing to the actual cake part!)

- Today we decided to have a treat and go to Chuck-A-Rama as a family! When we told you where we were going your face lit up in this huge smile and you yelled, "Chuck-A-Rama YES!" It was hilarious!

-You can scare crows "Scary Crows!"

- The other night your Dad and I were teasing each other making farting noises on our arms. You of course were sound asleep on our floor. Suddenly you started laughing and said, "That's gross! Livvy farted!" Your Dad and I died laughing!

I love you my hilarious boy!

Love,
Mom

Dear Bently,

Today we went to the pumpkin patch and it was a little rough for you! Now understand, I have been looking forward to going to the pumpkin patch since like September, maybe even earlier. It's one of my favorite family activities because the adults like it and the kids love it! So you can imagine my disappointment when you cried for half of the trip. You were obviously scared of something at the pumpkin patch. I think we finally came to the conclusion that you were scared of the animals, but that's just a guess. I was about to give up and just go home when I decided to try one more activity. You see, usually we can snap you out of it if we can distract you with something. So off we went to the corn pit. It's like a sandbox but filled with corn kernels. At first you wouldn't get in and it was just me, Dad and Livvy. Finally Dad picked you up and plopped you into the corn. That did it. I saw a small smile on your lips and I knew we were golden! You were 100% happy and adorable the rest of the time! You wanted to go on the hay ride and the slides and we went on a little animal train. The only disappointing thing was we didn't have much time to truly enjoy it after that because I had to work. But I'm just grateful we got some fun in there. :) You kept telling us you were going to be a farmer! It was adorable! And you still have a love for pumpkins. You would scream "PUMPKIN!" every time we saw one, which was very often! :)

We also went to Vernal this weekend to see Uncle Cole and Aunt Jen! We had a blast and you had so much fun with your cousins. It was so wonderful having older kids around to help watch you. You had more freedom than ever. I didn't even know where you were most of the time! ;) You ran outside and inside and played with their dog. It was entertaining to see how you interacted with all of your cousins! You were actually super good at sharing! And you and Skylar had a blast playing together! I always dreamed of these days when you two were born so close together! I can't wait for the summer when you can play with Skylar and Luke! :)

I love you so much handsome!

Love,
Mom

Dear Bently,

You are at a very confusing age. I just do not understand you thought process. Here is my biggest frustration right now. You are terrified of everything. Like everything. But the weirdest is you have started to become so scared of preschool. Preschool is held at Grandma's house and is taught by both your grandmas! It just doesn't make since how you could be afraid. We have spent hours in that house, in the preschool room even! I've tried talking to you about it but you never give me a reason why you are scared. The past 3 or 4 times it has been so hard to drop you off! You cry and scream, "I want my mommy!" And it just breaks my heart. Even though I know you are safe and you're going to be taken care of! If it were up to me I would've let you stay home. But your Dad said no. I know it was the right choice but he's not the one that has to drop you off! :( I love you son! I hate hearing your cry. The weird thing is every time I pick you up you are so happy and go on and on about what you learned in preschool! Today I almost took you with me, but I was glad I didn't. When I came back to pick you up the first thing you said was, "I had fun in preschool!" I knew you would! I love you and I hate having to watch you go through hard things but those are the things that help us grow. I look forward to the day where you are no longer scared of preschool!

Love,
Mom