Dear Bently,

Since we put you in a school we're technically not in the district for, I have to drive you/pick you up every single day. It's honestly not as bad as I thought it would be. Mostly due to the fact Dad has Monday through Wednesday off of work. So there are only 2 days a week I do it all myself. My favorite part is picking you up. There you stand with the other kindergartners, mostly you are off staring into space. As soon as you see me, your whole face lights up in a huge grin. Then you run towards me screaming "Mom!! Mom!!" I of course wave enthusiastically back! I love it! Every single time it melts my mama heart to watch you be so excited to see me! I hope you never stop greeting me this way! :)

This morning we found out Grandma Hodson died. It was sudden and very shocking. We decided to not tell you till you got back from school. I wasn't sure how you were going to handle it. We went to Grandpa Stetson's funeral in June so I knew you had semi understood death. You were a lot closer to Grandma Hodson than Grandpa Stetson. Mostly because they lived a lot closer to us. I was really worried. We asked you what you knew about death and who we knew that had died. That's when you began to act very funny. You didn't want to listen to us anymore. You didn't want to hear what we had to say. It was so sad. I didn't want to have to tell you. But of course, that wasn't an option. You cried. For a good 20 minutes. It was so sad. You told me you loved her and liked to play games with her Grandma Hodson was the best Grandma! She spent so many hours doing puzzles with you and playing toys on the floor. She loved you so much. She always lit up when she saw you! I hope you remember something about her. Hopefully something good. She was amazing! I know we'll both miss her!

Love,

Mom

Dear Bently,

We told you something really exciting yesterday! We told you I'm pregnant! I really really wanted to wait till we had an ultrasound with a heartbeat but I am awful at keeping secrets! Horrible! I was so excited to tell you! We told you and you were pretty excited. You smiled and seemed genuiely happy. But then you started making the I'm about to cry face. You Dad and I kept asking you if you were okay. You kept insisting you were. With a little prodding you finally broke down and cried. I thought you were sad we were having a baby and I was sad! You had always told me you did want another baby in our family! But then through your tears you told us it was a happy cry! I asked why you were so happy and you said, "Because you're having a baby!" I'm gonna be honest, I cried with you! It was stinking adorable and I am so very grateful we got it on video! :) It is such a special moment that now I get to relive forever!

I love you my very sweet boy! :) I hope your feelings are always close to the surface and I hope you always feel comfortable talking to me about what you are feeling!

Love,
Mom