Dear Bently

I don't know if our house is boring or if you're just like me and like to be out doing things, but you love it when we go bye bye. The past two evenings I haven't wanted to be in the house so you and I went to the park. The park is within walking distance so I decided to walk both nights. The first night I let you walk with me. You had a blast. You had to stop and bang on everything. You loved touching the leafs and running your hand along the chain link fence. You loved strutting around like a big boy. And you did look like a big boy because you are. You are no longer my baby anymore. You are a big boy who can walk himself to the park. I can't even believe it! But it sure saves my arms!

You love to park. You love to climb and bang on things and shake things, and go down the slides, and run, and swing. That last one surprised me a little. You go through phases of liking to swing and being terrified of it. Lately you can't get enough. We swing then we go play on something else. Then we come back and swing. It's exhausting but so fun watching you have a blast. You love love love it! And I love watching you have fun! :) Today as I pushed you on the swing you laied your tiny baby head back and just grinned as you felt the air rushing past you. Looking up at the sky with your cute grin I couldn't help but be envious of you. Your carefree. You don't have any stress or worries. Then I was sad. Because I know these days will eventually end. Eventually you will be older and have worries and stress. I want you to know I am always here for you! And I am always here to remind you that sometimes you have to throw your head back and just enjoy life. Because believe me, it rushes by too fast. Thank you for reminding me of that. For reminding me how beautiful and wonderful life truly is. So much of the beauty in my life comes from you little man. You seriously make me so incredibly happy. You have pulled me through some rough times. But you are always there, with your big hugs, cute smiles, and contagious giggles! :) Both nights when it was time to leave you cried. I feel so bad stopping your fun. But it gets cold and dark too quickly these days!

We have had some great moments together! I love getting to spend more time at home with you. You are always moving! I don't understand how you do! It's exhausting! With all this movement comes lots of trouble. You play in the toilet, you play with syrup, you take things out of the trash, you get lotion all over again, you bang on the keyboard and the mouse, you pull the canned food off the shelf, you climb up on the table, on the stroller, on basically anything and everything that can hurt you if you fall off. Today I caught you standing on the stroller and trying to pull the magnents off the fridge. Another one of your favorite activities. I just looked at you and said "Bently do you want to get hurt?" Hahaha! You sure do keep me on my toes! I get exhausted by the end of it! But you are worth it!

I love you Bently and literally treasure every moment with you. Today I just held you and gave you about a million kisses. You have learned to mostly block me out when I do this and act like nothing is happening. But I treasure each kiss I get to give you! I love you my little man! I love you more than you'll ever know! :)

Mommy